I Don't Know Where It Comes From But Its Inside You

He showed the Way

You have a truth inside you. That truth you have to awaken.

That truth must speak to you.

That truth is your true guru.

If you do not wake up that truth, the best of the best gurus cannot help you.

Can you germinate a seed in a ground that has not been prepared?

And even if you manage somehow to germinate that seed, do you think it will grow properly?

That truth alone is your savior.

Until you find that you will move in circles.

Until you have that truth firmly established in you, your religion will not help you.

Your spirituality will not transform you.

No amount of reading the books, and understanding the scriptures will help you.

No practice of yoga is really going to accomplish that union you seek.

Without knowing that truth, you will swim in the ocean of illusions.

Now what is that truth I have been talking about?

Where do you find it?

How do you know it is the truth?

That truth is the mirror in you, a mirror that truly reflects who you are, a mirror that truly shows you the truth of yourself.

Mirrors do not lie, unless you want to lie to yourself or you do not want to look at it.

If you have that inner mirror which shows you the truths regarding yourself, your intentions, your illusions, your irrational beliefs, your misguided notions, your prejudices and mental distortions, then you will not require any guru.

That mirror becomes your own guru.

Believe me.

You do not have to walk the walk of another, unless you want to relinquish your own truth and set aside all that you have experienced in your life as unreliable and useless.

There is a certain joy in finding your true Self in the mirror of your own mind and making that your true identity.

The seers and the sages, the saints and the great souls discovered that mirror inside them.

They developed that ability to be transparent to themselves, to be truthful to themselves, to be honest with themselves, to speak to themselves in a way that does not create illusions in their minds.

If you can find that mirror inside you, which can truly reflect who you are and teach you the best of the wisdom that you can follow in your life, then you become your own guru and even teach others how to find themselves and discover themselves.

All I do is to walk the Way he shows

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as a child i spent many frightening hours under some man

looked up to them for money to pay moms rent

looked up to them for money to pay for food

looked up to them to beg permission to spit, 

or shall i swallow again sir

running away to make my own life better

mom, i just left her there in fretters and tetter

sleeping in alleys under boxes

used to the rapes so that was not the worst

lowlife i was, i know

kick me, fuck me, stick it in me where you like, 

spit on me, call me whore, cunt, but please sir, 

please pay me

pimp protected property shooting galley slut

worth nothing but to make his rent for the day

nothing ever hurt as much as the look of disgust

on the faces of the women on the bus

kneeling in front at mass, 

i was so ashamed

priest refused to put bread in my mouth

but in his pews sat some,

who put stuff in my bum

for the love of jesus im too filthy 

but they are just oraait

od'd in a skanky toilet hoping to finally die 

but even that i fucked up

looked up, once more that familiar view 

looking up at a man

but he cared

fuckinghell! 

i did not know what that was 

i ran scared

weird shit that feeling

shot up and gathered my shit and went back to him again

he cared

he showed me unconditional positive regard

said it is like love

not me alone, many of us

his wife was an angel, to me he was like a god

i cried in his church

i cried on his shoulder

i cried in her lap

i never cried before that

i learned peace and found myself way out there

teetering on the ledge of despair

brought myself back and worked with her, healed her

she was not the slut i thought

she was just a child, deeply distraught

we were kind to her; him, me and his wife

and the child healed and she grew up, 

and we became one

i am still whole

thank god

my blog is dedicated to survivors of this shit that people do to children